now it hit me...

endurance...
this word has haunted me for the past few days....
i was sure i would break because i will fail in this area...
the Lord has been very patient with me...enduring my complaints and my bad attitude...
and for the past week, another test of endurance came...
how will i ever learn? or is it that i am being prepared to endure...for what? when? what kind of circumstance will test me once more...
at this point, i am expectant of the future...changes that will challenge my capacity to endure...situations that will stretch me to the limit...and only God knows where & when & why... i wouldn't dare ask him... i might fail...and i guess, i am allowed to...

for three long days without electricity, phone line & cellphone battery, the Lord's grace allowed me to endure...he alone deserves the glory...if it were not of him, i would have given up long ago...

i would...i just know it...my human nature strong to my bones will surely force me to give up & surrender...

and just when i thought i am one enduring woman, i am slapped in the face of the reality that i have a log way to go in becoming one...

and the past days have been evidences of my lack of it...